The things mom's get excited about!

William just went poop on the potty! and seriously I am utterly giddy, it could have been a fluke but I am still utterly giddy! Like jumping up and down running through the house, lets throw a fricken party giddy! Thats all.

JOY

By definition Joy is "the emotion evoked by well-being, success, or good fortune or by the prospect of possessing what one desires". At this point in my life I have a lot of misfortune, lack of well-being, and lack of success. It doesn't get me down, because the joy in my life is complete by looking in the eyes of my children. At 1.5 and 3.5 they capture joy in its entirety. They are here to remind me that no matter what is negative in this world or my life, they are here to bring me joy on a daily basis!

my favorite new thing

that William does is nod his head and say "yeah" its adorable!

re:the new phone

my new green phone. trying again as the last link was not a stable one. If this doesnt then you'll just have to trust me when I say that it is cute!

please forgive me

I missed making today (err um) yesterdays post by 40 minutes but you should know that its due to the fact that I actually got to go out tonight! One of my sisters friends turned 30 so I joined them to celebrate I hope I'm excused. I also got a new phone today and yes I choose it because it was green!

Note to self

in next life sleep more before I have children. In this life enjoy every waking moment with them even if it means waking at 4 am...

Wednesday

Wednesdays are my long day. I work from 8 until 4 and then go to school until 10. I both love and hate Wednesdays. By the end of the day I'm so happy that its over as I only have school M-W so in a way its a "Friday" for me. But I also work W-Su (except Sa) so its also like a Monday for me. At least the week is halfway over after today!

My last midterm....of this semester

is tonight, in my Calculus class.....We didn't get our Organic Chemistry actual grades, yet, but Dr. Gergen's enlightened us that the class average was a 65 and the high was an 85, maybe there will be a 20 point curve? that would rock!

because now's my free moment

Nathalie is at school, and William and I just returned from a morning of errands: Henry's, the park, quick stop at Target and home. He's asleep (woo hoo) and although I have plenty of things to be doing (homework, cleaning etc). I don't know about you all but me on the days I go get groceries I have the hardest time deciding what I should eat, because it all sounds so good and I just want to eat as much as possible. For lunch, I just made myself a tuna pita (its sooo good, the best part are the orange flavored dried cranberries I got at henry's this am) and thought hmmm I better go post real quick while I have the time! Tonight I'm going to attempt to make a curry for dinner, hopefully the kids will like it, I know dh will eat whatever I make, but its the kids I wonder about, although knowing there is chicken in it should be enough to make Nathalie happy, Mabye Ill make them a not as spicy batch! Ok well I guess I should try and get a little else done while William is nappng!

18 months old

Today William is 18 months old! This recent shot of him in his halloween "little devil" hoodie could not be more appropriate! He is one crazy boy that keeps me going 100 % of the time. My baby boy is getting so big, and its amazing to imagine that he's been alive long enough for two more babies to be born (to me) could you imagine, having a newborn, a 9 month old and an 18 month old! HOLY COW, see and I thought I had it rough!

ssshhhh Willam's asleep

Tonight, not an easy night for sleep, I mean as far as getting William down.
I finally put him in the car and drove in under 2 minutes he was asleep. Thankfully he remained asleep upon exciting said car and entering bed. The good news is that we gain an extra hour tonight, of course thats assuming that said rough to sleep boy realizes the time changed. Ha.

3 yr old birthday party

Today we went to a birthday party for my good friend Michele's twin boys Tyler and Cole who are 3. It was barnyard themed and lots of fun, I am utterly exhausted but didn't want to let down my obligation to post everyday in the month of November!

Edith's Birthday

Today is Sam's moms birthday. She is 68 today. I called her about an hour ago and the joy in her voice made me tear up as I got off the phone. When Sam went up to visit her she had a heart attack which landed her back in the hospital. She was moved last week to a Rehab place, to help her try to walk again and things aren't looking good. The Rehab people and the cancer Dr both told Debbie (sam's sister) that they don't think Edith will ever walk again. She will not get any more chemo or radiation either, which I truly think is a good thing. I wish we were up there (in Oregon) to be with her, but with all thats going on in our life right now it would be so hard to just up and leave. I wanted to write this post just to say Happy birthday to Edith!

NaBloPoMo

November is National Blog posting month (in honor of National novel writing month) and although I'd love too I know that I can't write a novel in a month. So I am going to participate in NaBloPoMo, in which I will post every day for a whole month. Let's hope I have a lot to say, oh wait, I always have a lot to say!

Today was a rough day in mommy land, this morning Nat and Will were driving me up the wall so badly that I couldn't get out of the house fast enough to get to the park! We got there around 930. It went well (minus the minor heart attack William gave me when he tried to jump off of the top of a very tall play structure) until about 12 ish when things started to go down hill fast. Nathalie was playing on some bleachers w/ a friend and fell and got a big owie on her leg; while tending to her William fell on same bleachers and bit his lip. Needless to say this was our cue to go home; on the plus side William took a 3 hour nap when we got home!

so wish me luck on this ambitous venture of participating in NaBloPoMO

Life

its been pretty hectic lately. I'm in the middle of midterms, with two done this week and one to go next. I'm extremely sad that I didn't get to spend Halloween with my kids, but find joy in knowing that I DO get to attend Nathalie's Halloween carnival on Friday! Sam's car died on Monday and my dad says its terminal; this is pretty sad news as we truly cannot afford a second car right now and I keep having horrible visions of no more playgroups. Currently we have my dad's 2nd truck (he has a work one and a home one) and he thought he had a really good deal for us on an old used car that his bosses daughter currently has sitting in her drive way (while she drives around in a 2006 Mercedes...pretty sure she doesn't need the old wagon in her driveway right?) which is all I really need, other than when I drive to Alpine to work, but at those times I'd use my current car; but turns out the really good deal on the old used car may not happen as girl is not really ready to depart w/ it. I'm tired and stressed and want to win the lottery...If anyone wins, will they throw me just enough to get an older used car, and maybe a house?! Thanks in advance!

to wean or not to wean that is the question

I have nursed William for 17 and a half months, I have loved most of it, truly I have. The moments that he and I share nursing are almost always joyful. Recently (in the past month or so) our nursing relationship has not been on such friendly terms. He bites.hits.plays.etc.... Yesterday I nursed William very early in the morning (around 4 am) and decided, I would see how long we could go without nursing. It's currently been 42 hours. Yesterday I attended a natural family playgroup and discussed my situation and feelings with the moms there. One mom really put it into perspective for me, (she just recently weaned her 18 month old) by stating that she was resenting her lo, which isn't healthy for anyone in that relationship. When stepping out of my relationship with William I realized that thats exactly where I am right now. All that being said, I really think that William and I are going to work together to a non-nursing status in our relationship. It makes me sad, because he is my baby, but honestly (even if it does sound selfish). I need this in order to stay sane.

Quarter Life Crisis....

so I stumbled across the following:

The Quarter-Life Crisis "Being Twenty-Something". "They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. Random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading it, relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out !!?" -Author uknown

and seriously I had to post it!

Sam comes home tomorrow

and I can't wait. I miss him more than I thought I would, and not just because I want a second parent around (although thats a plus)I really miss him. His mom is back in the hospital as she had a heart attack,she should be released today or tomorrow. I know that for the remainder of her life we will be on a constant roller coaster ride.

17 months old

William is 17 months old! (October 4th was the official date) and today I took him for his WBC, he is 23 pounds and 33 & 1/2 inches. My baby boy is getting so big I cannot believe it. Here is a picture of him and Nathalie on her school picture day last wednesday! I was trying to get a shot of her and he ran up right next to her so I couldn't resist the cuteness!