The latest on Sam's mom (Edith)

This picture of Nathalie showing her grandma a crawdad from our trip to Oregon in August makes me happy. I'm so happy that I was able to take my kids to visit there grandma, despite the fact that dh couldn't make the trip. I'm so glad that Edith was able to enjoy her grandkinds and I for a few days.

I've been meaning to post an update for days and have not been able to find the time, besides the fact that the news we got wasn't good and so I've kind of been delaying talking about it. Turns out they cannot do surgery. The cancer that she has is fast moving and the doctors say she has about 6 to 12 months to live. They started chemotherapy and radiation, which I honestly don't think I would do if I was in her situation.but im not so who am i to say right?! Sam is devastated, it hurts me so bad to see my husband hurting so bad. He's leaving to go up there on Friday and he'll be staying for a week.

The other day I talked to my fil (Richard) for a few minutes on the phone and it made me so sad, this man has been married to this woman for 48 years and he's going to loose her, it devastates me. When I got off the phone Nathalie asked me why I was sad. I told her I was sad because Grandma is sick and in the hospital, and Nathalie said "It's okay mommy Grandma is going to get all better and then her will come and visit us and then you'll be happy." and that made me smile. I love my Nathalie.

Wine tasting

Here is a picture of my friend Shannon, myself and Kelly in the Limo on Wine tasting day! It was such a blast; really, I still can't believe that I'm 28!

My little betty crocker

as I mentioned in yesterdays post Nathalie insisted that since it was my birthday yesterday she needed to make me cupcakes, and she did. now for the pictures that I promised.

Sam's Mom Oh yeah and its my birthday

At the end of last week Sam's sister Debbie took his mom to the Dr's and they discovered a spot on her Lungs. THey put her on Zithromax thinking that it may be an infection. Saturday Debbie rushed her to the ER because she was slurring her speech really badly and they were thinking that maybe she had a stroke. Luckily no stroke was involved...However, they sent her for a follow up w/ her primary care on Tuesday. At the follow up Edith's doctor found another spot on her lungs and immeadiately had her admitted to the hospital. After perfoming an MRI, they realized that one of the two tumors in her lungs had a lesion and had broken off and lodged itself in her tempral lobe (BRAIN) which has been causing her severe headaches, as well as the slurring of her words. Today they went in through her nose and took tissue out of the lung tumors in order to run tests to see what kind of cancer this is and how far developed it is. The dr believes that the tumor in her brain may be removable by surgery but we won't find out for sure until tomorrow. so please think good thoughts and for those of you that pray PRAY hard.

Today is my 28th birthday, only 2 more years until 30. My daughter who is 3 insisted that I needed cupcakes for my birthday and that she needed to make them for me. And so she did. I measured everything out, she poured it into the bowl, mixed it herself with the mixer and scooped into the cupcake holders. I cooked them. and I took some pictures that I'll try to post tomorrow. Saturday I'm going wine tasting via limo with my mom, sister, and 5 friends and can't wait as I've never done that before.

My shoulder

This morning after dropping Nathalie off at school, William and I came back home and he was tired so I laid down w/ him to nap for a bit. When we woke up my shoulder hurt so bad, I figured I had just slept in a wrong position. I had an appt at 11 w/ my sister to get my hair done, so William and I went to her salon and then came back home until it was time to pick up Nathalie. After picking up Nathalie I was surprised that my shoulder still seemed to be in quite a bit of pain. I went to school and took my Calculus test and we got out a little early (around 830) at this time I thought maybe I should try to get into Kaiser Urgent care as the shoulder wasn't improving. Turns out it was partially dislocated! I could hardly believe it myself. Anyways, it's not too bad, just a little painful, but it'll heal.

Tired.

so monday, I was just busy, but now I'm tired. This week consisted of Playgroup Monday (just for William as Nathalie was at school) home for Will's nap, mom (thats me) cramming in as much homework during nap time as possible, a trip to trader joe's pick Nathalie up from school, home to make dinner (we had chicken fajitas that were delicious) and then off to school for me. My crazy husband went back to work after I got home from school at 1030, worked all night, came home Tuesday morning, showered, ate and headed back to work as he has inventory coming up so he's cramming in as much work as possible. Tuesday morning I took Nathalie to school, then William and I met my Grandma at La Mesa pool so she could work with him some (she's a swim instructor) and he loves the water, but not so much without me in it apparently so for his next attempt Grandma got clearance for me to get in with them. After his swim he took a monster 3 hour nap (LOVED IT) while I did homework and cleaned a little bit. Tuesday night was Calculus for me (oh boy). Wed I worked all day then schooled all night came home in time for hubby to pull another overnighter. Thursday I did laundry and cleaned; then worked from 6 to 10. Today (friday) William and I took Nathalie to school, then came home and I TOOK A NAP with him from about 930 to 1030 it was amazing, I honestly couldn't tell you if I tried the last time I took a nap. Then we met daddy at his dr's appt at 11:30 (follow up from his shoulder surgery). We then met up with Nana and Auntie for lunch, and made a quick trip to Target. Hubby called while we were lunching and was broken down on the side of the 67; lucky for me (and dh) my dad happened to be in Poway (and my dad rocks with cars). Shortly after William and I returned from Target, Sam came home to William and I nursing in front of the air conditioner (it was so hot), I picked Nathalie up from school alone (left Will with daddy) and the first thing she asked was "where's William?" I then went to work, and just got back. and to think this is only the 3rd week of the semester. love it really i do.

I'm a little busy...

I completely missed posting for William's 16 months back on the 4th! He is getting so big and I am truly enjoying the little bit of alone time I've been getting with him while Nathalie is in school! He goes through nursing phases, but most days he's nursing 2 to 3 times a day (the morning, nap and bedtime). However, when I'm at school he skips bedtime and wakes up around 2 to nurse. I miss Nathalie while she is in school. Today I thought about calling twice, but didn't, and did pick her up 20 minutes early! Ms. Bennett (her teacher) said that Nathalie was very good today, and she made a really cool green alligator! Starting at the end of Septemeber, we have the option of enrolling her in a dance class on Tuesdays from 3 to 340 at her school, and I think we are going to!

School for me is beginning its 3rd week today, and although its work, I truly enjoy being a student. Yes, I'm one of those. I love the sense of self it gives me. I truly enjoy learning new things, specifically things that I know are going to encourage my and my families future! I don't like the extra time it takes me away from them, but its all for the better in the end!

Preschool

Today was Nathalie's 1st day of Preschool! She loved it. She didn't cry when I left, and was excited when I came to pick her up, yet cried that she didn't get to stay at school! I didn't cry, I missed her, but I didn't cry! I can't believe my girl started school!